I Am Thankful For You, Dear Reader

I did planed to write a blog about gratitude before Thanksgiving Day,  the one day of the year when we are reminded, on a national level, to give thanks for what and who we love. (I am thankful for the the people who love me - my friends and neighbors - in my life)

I am thankful for the beauty of fall outside my door

Seems like everyday is a good day to give thanks and remember how grateful I am for all I have and love and for those who are in my life and who love me.

Several of my friends are working on gratitude studies and that sounds pretty neat.

I am thankful for the abundance of nature in my life.

Here is a link to the one Jennifer sent me in an email: http://gogratitude.com/

(I am thankful for my son and his family in my life)

Some time in the early 90s I was listening to tapes by Mary Manin Morrissey. From the internet it looks like she was very popular in the 70s. Here is a sample of what she taught: greatthoughtstreasury.com/author/mary-manin-morrissey

I am thankful for roses.

The one thing I used from the tapes was an exercise on gratitude. (I am thankful for my hearing and vision) She said to sit down every night and write 50 things you were thankful for. That seemed excessive to me, but I followed the instructions exactly. (I am thankful for my safe and comfortable car) At the time I was sad and depressed (there was little work and I was ending a relationship) and thought this would be something I could do to change my energy level. (I am thankful for my abundance of dollars [even if it’s only $2] in my bank account and wallet) Every night I wrote 50 things I was thankful for. It was not easy when I started; mostly I thought of everyday things and what I saw around my apt: my bed, this chair, running water. It is the feeling that matters. God hears our feelings much louder than our words. My energy, feelings changed every time

 I wrote down what I was thankful for. (I am thankful for my sister in my life) In that sense the change was immediate. It took a couple of weeks before my life began to change for the better. (I am thankful for my home) I have a tendency to use these tools when I want relief and in time I may forget again. Maybe  something different …..  I read an article that told of another way to remember to be grateful. A  man sat down and wrote a thank you note every day for a year. He sent these to friends, family, strangers, even businesses, telling them what a good job they were doing, how helpful they were or how much he appreciated them in his life. He said it was a life changing year for him. I can imagine how the recipient felt getting a thank you note. Good feelings all around.
So, why is this paragraph different? I don't have a clue. Worked to change it, but no results.

The Swamp is being cleared of some trees. This opens up the view and probably discourages the homeless and others from congregating there. There are times when the litter is pretty bad. I figure I can curse the litter or take pictures of the beauty. There is deep shade in the summer and it is usually very quiet there. 

(I am thankful the for this beautiful spot only half a mile from where I live)

(I am thankful the format is only a bit screwed up)

Local Color and The Great Work

The roses are still blooming 

Roses are still blooming here at Tree House

profusely. 

With the cold coming in and the clouds obscuring the sun no doubt they too will very soon shut down for the winter.

Matt is almost finished raking the leaves that covered the grass

One of the perks of living at Tree House is my rent covers all yard maintenance and I don’t have to do a thing. 

This is something to be thankful for, but there are times I can only complain about the noise the machines make. 

                                                                                                               So often it is only the workings of our mind that 

                                                          separates us from happiness and/or those we love.

In the biblical story about the 
Garden of Eden it seems to me eating the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil is a metaphor for our ability to make judgments.

Perfection of full bloom

Last Christmas, friend Deneen Peckinpah, gave me a beautiful calendar with the theme of the writings of Hafiz, a fourteenth century Sufi poet who became a famous spiritual teacher. 

His poems are classics in the literature of Sufism and mystical verse and were translated by Emerson and read by Nietzsche and Doyle whose character, Sherlock Holmes, quotes Hafiz.

This morning as I glanced at this calendar I saw this: 

“All I know is love, and I now find my heart infinite and everywhere."

Classical view of a bud near the patio

Reading this my 

heart says,“Yes, I can love and 

feel that spaciousness and freedom."  

Allowing others to be who they are and welcoming them in my heart. 

And yet, my mind seems to be 

ever alert to life’s shortcomings 

and unfairness. 

I believe it is our job to reconcile 

our heart and our mind.

What a beauty

Not by shutting either one of them down, but through integration, allowing them to merge, to become allies. 

Allowing Love and Reason to 

become friends. 

I don’t know anyone personally 

who has achieved this. 

It is no wonder the process of bringing our mind and heart into alignment is called 

The Great Work. 

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I love taking pix of these roses. Seems I never really looked at flowers or insects until I began to look at them through the viewfinder on my camera. To be able to capture what I see and share is delightful and fun. 

The Wonder of Fall

Autumn is my favorite season. I love the colors, the cool breezes, the hint of frost, 
the incredible blue of the sky. I notice the shadows growing longer and the days a 
bit shorter around mid August. Now we are well into November, the harvest is in, Summer activities have faded out. This is the season to assess what we have 
harvested this Summer and prepare for Winter. 

The roses have all been in a state of stress due to a cut back in the water 
used here at Tree House. These last few days of rain have given them new 
vigor and they are blooming again.

Driveway Hybrid Tea Roses

Another Tea Rose grows near the Tree House patio.
The red background, I believe, is a Japanese Maple. 

In Autumn the low, weak Sun casts shadows long and deep

And all around the tress prepare for Winter's sleep

Leaves glowing russet, flame and amber whisper their good-byes

Their Summer secrets they will keep...................
until they are scattered in the  wind

Visiting Robins discover the berries are just right

November has been a great month. Had a good visit with my son, Paul. We
went to the internationally known coffee place, sat outside and had good 
conversation. And my grandson, Aaron, came by one afternoon to interview 
me for a collage project he is working on. Thoroughly enjoyed visiting with 
them both. Pet sitting a couple of days this month. And then there is 
Thanksgiving Day when I'll go to the Tree House Pot Luck and visit with my
fellow neighbors and friends. 

Thank you for reading thus far and allowing me to share my pictures and ideas with you.

The formatting looks good in draft mode, let's see what the finished product looks like.

You Are Free To Make a New Decision

Some trees at the Turtle Bay Arboretum 

Thinking about what I would tell children, grandchildren or great grand children about life.

I would say you can always make a new decision about you and your life. The choices, the decisions, you made about yourself and who you are at the age of 2, 15, 20, 50, 71 or 90 can be remade. You can decide again and again and again.

Strange flower found at the Turtle Bay Arboretum

So often we follow the guidelines of our parents or family traditions. We don’t think of what and who we are or want to be, which may be different.... or the same. 

A personal example: because my mother always ordered cheesecake for dessert, as a child I thought it was the best and always loved cheese cake. But somewhere in my 30s I wondered if I really liked this sour, mushy stuff and decided I didn't. 

The same flower after being drenched with rain. 

Family traditions may be conservative or liberal, agnostic or religious. Sometime in our life, if we are to grow, thrive, evolve, we start thinking for our self and doing and being what is true for us. So I would encourage all to make new decisions about who they are. We don’t have to be the same all our lives or make the same decisions all our lives. 

The question is, “What if I make a wrong decision?”

In the 70s I read Jerry Jampolsky’s book "Teach Only Love" in which he says there are only two emotions, love and fear. Around the same time I read Theo’s book on "Meditation" in which he says we experience only two feelings or vibrations, expansion or contraction.

Tree House driveway rose

I would answer there are no wrong decisions, but there are always, always consequences. Consequences are not 100 percent good or bad. They may be mostly freeing, filling you with joy and love. Or they may be mostly constricting, filling you with fear and pain. If you’ve made a decision that is freeing, that enables you to grow and thrive, that fills you with joy, now or in the past, then it could be called good. If it is constrictive and painful, if you are not thriving, it could be called bad. 

Rose bud also along the Tree House driveway

Making the same decisions over and over through the days and years of our life is how we  keep our lives the same. Should our life be constrictive or less than what we need to thrive the power to change our experience from constricted to expansive is always today. 

Going to seed?

 Jerry Jampolsky’s site is where he talks about his ongoing work with Attitudinal Healing. 

Our local Mt. Shasta. Taken Nov. 1st. 

Choose what nourishes you

Haiku and Pictures

Around Home I especially like the cool  mornings before staff comes on and    
the chance to walk around and notice the mountains to the east, Lassen, and 

Mt. Shasta to the north. Also take a few pix of flowers and the birds.

Note: Discovering the formatting with the pictures on one side or the other does not hold from draft to preview to publishing Blog spots Blogger.  So, for now,  it's back to this even though I like the other way better. 

Tree House morning and autumn's deep shadows on the lawn

    One Sunny Morning took this picture and wrote a haiku. 

          Fall day, blue sky, Sun
     casting shadows on the lawn
       Life waits winter's sleep

Haiku is a Japanese form of verse containing three lines. The first and last lines are 5 syllables and the middle line is 7. The idea is to juxtaposition two images or ideas. I’m just a beginner and spend most of my thinking energy figuring out the syllables. I like the gentle quality of haiku and the effort of creating an image with so few words.  Traditionally haiku is about the seasons. Should you want to know more about Haiku click here.   

October rose with green background

       
                             Another haiku effort   

                             October rose blooms
                          in the cool shadows of fall
                               we also bloom here                    

                      

                   Another day took camera and went to the river near Sun Dial bridge. The ducks and geese were cooperative and did some great posing for me. 

This guy knows who and what he is

                   

Cutie

Looks like this duck is resting on the branch, but it is in the water,
the branch on the shore. I thought the perspective was interesting.

Happy Halloween

Don't you wonder sometimes what Halloween is suppose to be about, I mean, other than the fiasco created by the commercial aspect of every holiday celebrated in western culture?  

Halloween or Samhain is a

Did not have a Halloween pic. This was taken two days ago
 and it has a black cat in it.

Cross Quarter holiday. There are eight holidays still celebrated by world pagans: the fall and spring solstices, the summer and winter equinoxes, and four cross quarter days, Feb. 2 (ground hog day) May 1 (May Day)  Aug. 2 (dog days of summer)  Oct. 31.(Samhain) --  Summer’s end, a harvest festival marking the end of the year and the beginning of the dark days of winter. It is amazing to me how the pagan holidays still exist within the Christian culture. Only a few are aware of it.

 Neighbor, friend, photographer Phil and I went out on a
photo safari, Was great to walk along the river. 

This year I am recalling past Halloweens when we celebrated in a friend’s home. We didn't dress in costumes or wear masks. Instead we celebrated this cross quarter day by creating an alter on which we placed fruits of the season: gourds, pumpkins, squash, apples, pomegranates. Also candles and objects that represented the four elements, fire (candles) earth (live, growing plants) air (feathers) and water (usually in a bowl and sometimes used for blessings). Also these objects may represent the four directions.

We stopped at the Arboretum and took a few pix where we could find color.

When all was ready, we called in the four directions asking them to bless our space, then the space was declared closed (it became sacred space). We drummed and chanted and danced in a spiral. This began with a line of people and gradually the line became a circle that was tightened into as small a space as possible. Here we let go of the past (symbolically died) and any grudges or grievances we may have brought with us. Then slowly the spiral was unwound (we are reborn). The space was opened  the four directions thanked and released. After that we sat and visited as sisters while we shared a meal of pumpkin soup, homemade bread and fresh apple cider.   

Home again, spotted this ruffled Jay in the tree by my building.

It is always fun just to walk around Tree House and find birds, flowers of all makes and models, bugs, bees, butterflies to capture in the digital camera. If I miss the shot, the chances are there will not be another opportunity to capture that picture.

And here is the great Mantis attached to the outside wall. 

He/She hangs on to the wall with fine fingers that grab the bumps in the plaster

Head shot of praying Mantis. A bit leery of me and the camera.

 Roses are still blooming and the rain has brought new buds and also new life to  other flowers around Tree House. Hybrid Tea Roses, Floribunda, Rose trees and small bush type roses grow on the grounds.  

Beautiful red rose after refreshing rain. 

So that's my Halloween story and pix. When I took the picture with the black cat did not even see the cat. 

Reality Check

                                                     

 Living In The Now

Fall Garden Image

Like most I live in the now
relying on information
from the past.
My relationships with
persons, places and things
are conditioned
by my memories of past
experiences.
In this way I habitually
ignore current reality
which is always new.

Werner H. Erhard of EST fame talked about being present when he said that after reading the menu we eat what is served not knowing what we are eating because we are eating what we read on the menu, not the meal. In relationships we assume we love someone because we have realized at some point that we do. But in the present we don’t feel love, we just know it’s there. Like looking into someone’s face and not 

seeing it in the now, we only see and know the past.

Flower and Fork

A striking example took place after writing most of this blog. One of my neighbors shaved his Van Dyke style facial hair so he was clean shaven. He has lived among and become a member of this community for the past 8 years and every one of his neighbors knows him wearing a goatee and mustache.

Without these he looks very different, younger and more energetic. I've watched as those he is talking with, looking him right in the face, do not notice the change in his appearance. This is what I mean by responding to others from memories, not from the reality of  now.  

Potted Plant on Patio

As I look at my relationships and what is actually happening in them i.e. Reality, I see some of my friendships and family relationships are not growing, or even interesting, but… rather stagnate. There is no personal sharing, no shared experience when we don’t have the time for that to happen.

Maybe this is part of the Face Book era. One need only click with the computer mouse and one has friends. I've read where people defend their online friendships as real and meaningful. Maybe so or maybe this kind of friendship is all they know.

Morning Red Rose

So after a reality check, I know that in my old age I want more than to interact from a past perspective or memories. I want more than virtual friends.

I want dynamic relationships in the now, relationships that are growing and interesting, be they family or friends. I want to listen and actually hear others, I want to see them clearly, as they are now, not slide some old picture in front of my eyes and stare at that while trying to relate to who this person is today.

And Loving What Is